2003 year in review
so as 2004 comes in in like 5 hours, i think its time for me to give a brief review of the 2003 that just passed. being the optimist that i am, i will start with the bad stuff, and end with the good stuff. (note...much of this review comes from my archives, so if you want more detail, check the archives)

the =( stuffs
- the explosion of the space shuttle columbia
-single awareness day (aka valentine's day)...meaning my love life has sucked this year
-the first of my C's in my major (ehh...all the C's ive gotten in my major have been this year)
-the iraq war
-my brother eric's stroke
-students first getting screwed @ ucsd
-my brother eric's death 1 month after his stroke
-missing out on kp pilipino cultural celebration because of the funeral
-family bickering after eric's death
-catching up with school after the funeral (ie, 6 all nighters @ clics during spring qtr finals)
-somebody hitting my car while it was parked
-got sick in vegas
-missing jeff baker's going away party
-governator
-the death of joy de la cruz
-san diego on fire
-the death of one of my 2nd grade teachers (Mrs. Beverly Trust)
-30 1/2 hours straight being awake during fall qtr finals (2 papers=23 pages total, due 5 hours apart)

the =) stuffs
-dave n busters virgin no more
-the discovery of rei do gado
-my preuss school students
-APSA talent show
-APSA undergrad vs grad sports day, where the undergrads dominated (the next one will be the last time the undergrads win =p)
-pcc practices, and the community i felt while i practiced with them
-knight rider coming back on tv =)
-spring break in las vegas (last time eric and i spoke, & chillin w/ friends there)
-APSA Grad Banquet
-disneyland annual pass
-boogie boarding all summer
-san diego county del mar fair
-turning 22
-intersuite 450 (summer bridge 2003)
-the failure of prop 54
-friendship games (nuclear boobs, gay's island, dick's last resort, nutwood, siemens =p)
-finding a $5 bill @ regents parking
-APSA High School Conference
-bay area virgin no more
-a full family thanksgiving
-making money once again (through work...summer bridge & macy's)

as you can see, 2003 has been full of ups and downs. im sure there were more...im just glad that 2003 is over, because even though ive had more ups than downs, the downs seriously outweighed the ups. im just hoping the 2004 will be a much better year than 2003 has been...of course it will, im graduating!!! this just about summarizes 2003. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages < l =)

Home Alone
for the next 5 days...my dad went to las vegas for the week. i couldnt go, cuz i have work @ macys. so yeah, i have the place all to myself. who wants to party? as for new years...i have no idea whats going on. gimme ideas people...maybe i'll go to richard's thing @ his place...we shall see. other than that, hopefully some fun will come out of this week, since this is the last week that i have off before school starts again. yes, it is my last winter break of my undergraduate career @ ucsd..so sad, i guess. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =p

Merry Christmas Everybody!!!

hmm...should i blog?
i dunno...only if the demand for this blog is high enough...comment over there to lemme know if i should blog. yeah yeah, this is a shameless attempt to get comments over there, but it could also be used as an excuse for me since i really have nothing to blog about right now. but if the demand is high enough, maybe i can come up w/ something interesting enough for people to read and get their money's worth...but then again, you guys pay nothing to read my juicy tidbits of haloHalo happenings. haha...im gonna go christmas shopping right now...but while i'm away, comment over there ------------------------------->
and maybe i'll accomodate all y'all haloHalo junkies. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =p

workin
so as i have mentioned before, i'm working @ macy's. im actually somewhat enjoying it...and the people i work with are pretty cool. but the thing that is really getting to me is the music they play. since it's christmas season, of course they have to play christmas music over AND over AND OVER again! i blocked it out for awhile, but it just got engrained into my head that now if i hear any christmas song outside of work, i just go crazy. among the songs that drive me crazy are jingle bell rock, holly jolly christmas, and the worst of em all...LITTLE DRUMMER BOY. my coworkers and i want to kill the people who wrote these songs...or at least tie them to a chair, and play these songs to them non-stop for 8 hours.

we do get bored sometimes when it gets slow in the store. to pass the time while we're working, my coworkers and i analyze some of these songs. we have come to the conclusion that santa claus is a stalker (he knows when youre sleeping, he knows when youre awake), and a pervert (he knows when youre naughty) and he likes to make out with mom (i saw mommy kissing santa claus). oh yeah...and rudolph aint nothing without his nose and i have no idea what the lyrics to little drummer boy are, even though i hear it 6 times a day. ah...the joys of retail...and the christmas music that drive workers in retail crazy. ok...time to sleep so i can shop tomorrow morning and then go to work to hear more about santa's perverted ways...stay tuned, we'll be back after these messages =p

new layout
so i decided to put up a new layout...that last all black layout had been up for well over a year...i kinda got tired of it, and it kinda made my page look...well...black. it's not like i had anything else to do...i have pretty much finished my finals, except for my sign language finals. just look around...comment, and stuffs...im gonna go veg some more in front of the tv before i go to sleep. i got work @ macy's tomorrow...first day @ 12noon...stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =)

done
this weekend was a marathon writing session...i had a 12 page paper due, which turned out to be 18 pages (with the added figures and stuff that was needed for the paper, but not "graded) for hdp 191 and a 5 page paper for tep 117 that i hadnt read for. both were due today at 12 noon and 6pm. let's just say that i was up for 30 1/2 hours (between 12 noon yesterday and 630 tonight) with no sleep. but yeah i got it done...and came home and slept for 5 hours. im still a lil tired, but i didnt wanna go to sleep for the night just yet...so i got up and vegged in front of the tv. let's just say that it feels damn good to be done. well...im not completely done, cuz i still have my sign language conversation on weds, and a sign language final on friday...but that's pretty easy, so im not stressin, and im prolly not really gonna study...kinda nice that im taking that class pass/no pass...so technically i'm not done w/ school just yet, but pretty much, i'm free! training @ macy's tomorrow...maybe i should go to sleep now, so i can be fully fresh for that. peace and adobo grease...stay tuned, we'll be back after these messages =)

still awake
it's 430 in the morning, and i'm still awake and doing my 12 page HDP 191 paper. this thing is due in 32 31 1/2 hours! i've got the majority of it done...i guess that's cuz i locked myself in my office @ OASIS today from 2pm til OASIS closed @ 3am (with a few breaks here and there). even though i worked on it all day, i still got some stuff to polish up on it...i am determined to finish this paper before my head hits my pillow. that's cuz i got my 5 page TEP paper to do tomorrow, and that's due in 38 37 1/2 hours. so yeah, i got a lot more to do before i can finally relax. so what am i doing here typing this blog? =/

on another sad note...i just found out that one of my 2nd grade teachers passed away. i had 2 teachers who switched off during different days of the week to teach. Mrs. Beverly Trust died about a month ago from breast cancer at the age of 54. i dont remember everything that happened when i was a 2nd grader, but i do remember that i did like her as a teacher. i tell you, there are way too many deaths! stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =(

my final fall quarter
is now over...today (and yesterday) was hand clap day...meaning that there is no more class...only finals. for me, finals will come in the form of 2 papers...both due on monday. let's just day that i will be spending a lot of time staring at the screen this coming weekend. i am looking forward to monday night...yeah i have another final for sign language, but that is cake compared to the 5 pages i have to write for my TEP class, and the 12 pages for my HDP 191 class. yep, this weekend is gonna suck! on a side note...apsa stress relief is tonight @ the CCC, and xzhibit is performing for free at the price center tonight also. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =S

driving home
i really enjoy driving home from school each day. not because im on my way home to relax from a long day, but because it's a time when i can play loud music in my car, and just use that time to think and reflect about what happened that day, or think about other random things. its a good way for me to somewhat center myself, and brace myself for whatever i may or may not have to do when i get home (eg. homework, or sleep). ok...enough of the random blogs, i already blogged twice in the last 5 minutes...i got a 12 page paper to work on. stay tuned..we'll be back after these messages =l

hired holiday whore
i have officially sold my services for the holidays, for the lowly price of $7.50 an hour. i am now employed by Macy's @ UTC for the holidays (maybe more after...who knows?). lucky me, i dont start til after finals are over. look for me in the men's department of Macy's after december 14th...i think? had my interview, and they mentioned something bout my start date, but it wasnt too clear. i have orientation tomorrow night from 4-8...yep, im in to for the money (not that i will be making much). stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =p

Thanksgiving
yes it is thanksgiving day...let us take a moment to remember those who are less fortunate than we are (how cliche-ish). but i am very thankful for what i have. i am having a big family dinner for the first time in a long time. my mom is in town, and my aunt and 2 cousins are coming over...so dinner is over here at my place. im in charge of desserts this year, with pumpkin pecan pie and chocolate mixed-nut bread pudding. yes, the creative juices in me are coming out again (not those juices if thats what youre thinking you pervs). this will definitely be one of the best thanksgivings of all the 22 thanksgivings that ive had. hope all is great with you and your family, happy thanksgiving everybody! stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =)

applications
why am i procrastinating in filling out applications? i really should be filling out apps for my teaching credential/masters program, but i haven't even started. the first one is due in january, but still...i should be getting my shit together. but i guess school (and other things) have been keeping me busy, and draining me...so i havent really been too motivated to fill em out. i should also be filling out apps to get a job for the holidays, but like my post-college apps, i'm procrastinating on that too. just keep one thing in mind....Procrastination is like masturbation, it feels good til you realize youre fucking yourself! definitely words to live by. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =p

Bay Area Virgin
no more...went there this weekend, and got back like an hour ago. i really wanna explore the bay more than i did. i was there for a conference, so i didnt really have much time (only saturday night) to explore. i'm tired, had to drive pretty much the whole way (except for about an hour and a half somewhere in kern county into la) when my eyes were about to give out on me from focusing on the road too much over the weekend. i would give a minute by minute description of what i did, but i'm just lazy. so if u know me, ask me...and if u dont know me, u can still ask me by leaving a message over there to the left. back to life, back to reality, back to homework right now after i close this window =(. stay tuned, we'll be back after these messages =)

short recap
APSA High School Conference was great, even though it was on a sunday. good times, and an education was gained by all who came, including the peeps putting it on (ie, me and the other HSC committee chairs, and especially Richard & Tiffany). cant believe that this was my last HSC as an undergrad @ UCSD. CRAZY!

Heading up to San Jose tonight to go to a conference in Stanford tomorrow. i'm "hella" excited since this will be my first time in norcal EVER! will be back on sunday to work on my HDP 191 presentation which will be next weds. yeah, cant wait til that's over...then i can just relax a bit til finals come around in a few weeks. ok...gonna go pick up the rental cars from enterprise now. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =)

ever get one of these emails?
Attention
I am Mr. Patrick Tama and my sister is Miss Rose Tama,
we are the children of Late Chief Paul Tama from Sierra
Leone.
I am writing you in absolute confidence primarily to
seek your assistance to transfer our cash of Ten
Million Dollars ($10,000.000.00) now in the custody of
a private Security trust firm In Europe,the money is
in trunk boxes deposited and declared as Family
valuables by my late father as a matter of fact the
company does not know the content as money, although
my father made them to understand that the boxes
belongs to his foreign partner.

Source of the Funds:

My late father Chief Paul Tama, a native of Mende
District in the Northern province of Sierra Leone, was
the General Manager of Sierra Leone mining
coporation (S.L.M.C.) Freetown. According to my
father, this money was the income accrued from Mining
Corporation's over draft and minor sales.

Before the peak of the civil war between the rebels
forces of Major Paul Koroma and the combined forces of
ECOMOG peace keeping operation that almost destroyed
my country, following the forceful removal from power
of the civilian elected President Ahmed Tejan Kabbah
by the rebels. My father had already made arrangement
for his family(talking about)my mother, my little
sister and myself to be evacuated to The Netherlands
with the CERTIFICATE OF DEPOSIT he made with a
security firm in Europe through the aid of U.N
evacuation team.

During the war in my country, and following the
indiscriminate Looting of Public and Government
properties by the rebel forces, the Sierra Leone
mining corporation was one of the targets looted and it was
destroyed. My father including other top Government
functionaries were attacked and killed by the rebels
in November 2000 because of his relationship with the
civilian Government of Ahmed Tejan Kabbah.

As a result of my father's death and with the news of
my uncle's Involvement in the air crash in January, it
dashed our hopes of survival. The untimely deaths
caused my mother's heart failure and other related
complications which later lead to her death in the hospital
after we had spent a lot of money on her early
this year. Now my 18 year old sister and I are
alone in this country suffering without any
care or help. Without any relation, we are now like
refugees and orphans.

Our only hope now is in you and the boxes deposited
in the Security Firm, to this effect, I humbly
solicit your assistance in the Following ways.

1. To assist me claim this boxes from the security
Firm as our beneficiary.

2. To transfer this money (USD$10M) in your name to
your country.

3. To make a good arrangement for a joint business
investment on our Behalf in your country and you,
our Adviser/ Manager For your assistance, I have
agreed with my younger sister that 20% of the total
amount will be for your effort and another 10 % to
cover all the expenses that may be incurred during the
business transaction, Lastly, I urge you to keep this
transaction strictly confidential as no one knows our
where about.

Please as you show your willingness; Forward to us
your full name, address and Tel/ Fax numbers, company
name and address (if any) to me via my private email
address as indicated below, this is for security
reasons as I will only be accessing my private email.
Earnestly awaiting your response.

Thanks.

May God bless you as you assist us

Mr. Patrick Tama



NO THANKS!

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short story
once upon a time, earlier today jeff found a $5 bill on the ground at the regents parking lot @ ucsd. jeff picked it up and put it in his pocket. he and his friends had lunch at costco after outreaching for high school conference at grossmont high school. jeff was able to pay for lunch using the money he found. jeff was happy and full when he returned to campus for class. the end!

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HAPPY haloHaloween

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is it night already?
it's 230 in the afternoon, and it seems like its night outside. today was day 2 of classes being cancelled @ ucsd due to the fires around sd. i'm thinking that school will most likely be cancelled tomorrow also. it's crazy, i've never seen it like this in sd ever. it's so sad, i'm watching channel 7 right now, and theyre talking about a 16 year old who died while running away from the fire on sunday. yay that there's no school, but boo for the reason why there isnt any school. keep those in mind who are affected by this disaster. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =/

fire!
good news...school is cancelled tomorrow...bad news...we're gonna burn! yes, san diego is on fire right now! i'm about a 5-10 min drive from the fire in scripps ranch...and about the same distance away from the fire at miramar. crazy stuff...i've never seen it like this in sd before. it's literally snowing...not snow snow, but ash snow. a lot of houses have been burnt down. a few of my friends are affected by the fire, and may have to evacuate sooner or later. i'm hoping for the best, for all who are directly, or indirectly affected by the fire that's ravaging the county. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =/

friendship games
instead of going to vegas, i decided to go to my final friendship games as a student at ucsd was great. had the hotel experience, and still managed to get a few hours of sleep.

some things of note...
racing the jelly belly truck
the boobs on the 5 w/ glowing red nipples (only 1 worked on the way back)
gay's island
dick's last resort
nutwood
siemens
damn straw game
ash rain


ok im done...now back to sleep
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done
not really, just done w/ half of my TEP 117 midterm that's due on tuesday...but i dont think im gonna work on it anymore tonight, cuz i gotta work on my research proposal for HDP 191 as well as my detailed notebook for my research in that same class. i'm also falling behind in looking for journal sources for that class. i swear, they really work me hard in that class. not only do i have to put up with obnoxious (yes big word) spoiled students at Torrey Pines High School, i also have to do a buttload of work so i can get my 12 page paper final complete. i guess they really want us to work for the 6 units we're getting for it, or maybe they just wanna see if we've got what it takes to get a degree in HDP...hmm, maybe they dont want us to get a degree? but then again, they would be stuck with us forever and ever...ok enough of this...im hungry. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =/

btw...
watch Kill Bill volume 1 it great...bloody, but great. i watched it last night, and i wanna see it again. cant wait til volume 2 comes out. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =)

i wanna...
go out and do something 21+...not like go to the store and buy alkie, but like go to a club or dave n busters or something...havent done any of that in a while. i dunno, i just feel like going out and using my privilege...but havent had the chance lately. Ronnel is going to Las Vegas next weekend for his bday, and invited me to tagalong, but i dont think im gonna do it cuz i got a lot of work to do. so im thinking im just gonna go to friendship games at csu fullerton, and try to catch up on my work the rest of that weekend...but that still leaves me with no real plans to abuse my privilege. hmm...hopefully something will come up...stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =/

ok
i give up...im going to sleep...i got about half of what i wanted to get done done....thats ok i'll do it sooner or later cuz its not due til monday...but then again i got a midterm to work on and a formal research topic to write up for hdp 191. eh...

taking my car in to Pacific Honda tomorrow for scheduled maintenance and to get the battery replaced. it died on me today after i filled up @ MCAS Miramar...not fun

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10 minutes ago...
i said that i had field notes to type up, but instead im reading other people's blogs...since im not doing my notes, i should just sleep...that would be more productive than reading blogs...hmm, the choices.

btw...magic 92.5 is the best station to listen to while doing homework, that is if you're ACTUALLY doing homework, like i'm not. what will i do next? stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =p

yes...
i know i should update...i know! i will jeez!!! but right now i got some field notes to type up, so an update will have to wait...but not too long...u will get an update soon.

but i will say this....stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =p

teacher prep
took the cbest today @ my old jr high (now middle school), challenger middle school...weird to think that this time next year i will be out of ucsd and learning how to be a teacher at some other school...stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =)

Rest in Peace Joy de la Cruz =(

its recall election time
so go out and vote...

NO ON PROP 54!!!

and for governor....hmm...i dunno...check this out...


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week 0
so this was just my last ever week 0 at ucsd. did a lot of tabling for apsa this past week and did a few of the welcome week activities that were going on. mainly, i just went to the different dances (marshall, all campus, warren, multigreek) and went to the summer bridge reunion. 1st day of class was pretty cool...had 2 classes, my sign language lab class and tep 117. not 1 word was verbally said in my sign class, as we just practiced saying our names in sign, and played some charades. tep 117 was full...out of 120 seats in the class...there were at least 150 peeps in the class, 30 of whom were trying to get in. ian and i, who are already in the class, came 5 min before the class started and had to stand in the back. that night was the APSA ice cream social.
friday was day 2 of school, where i had 2 other classes. hdp 191 and asl class (not lab). good news/bad news...good news is i'm the only male in a class full of 35 females...bad news is I'M THE ONLY MALE IN A CLASS FULL OF 35 FEMALES! i feel like im gonna have to be the voice of all males in this class...it already started on friday when we had to defend or argue against the statement "males and females develop their personalities differently due to the shape of their brains and their differing hormones." yep...i had to tread carefully when speaking. even more pressure was...the professor knew my name (obviously cuz im the only male in the class)...i hope i make it out alive! asl class was pretty much the same as asl lab...no talking! that night, i had dinner w/ Kim, Stephanie (Kim's roomie), Lauren, Ryan, Annie, & Daniel at fuddruckers before i headed out to the KP bonfire at paradise point. got boba at Green Tea House w/ Cerissa, Abby, Gail, & Daniel (different one) and headed out to La Jolla Cove for a bit and hung out @ Cerissa's dorm.
Saturday was the APSA bonfire @ La Jolla Shores...so that was pretty much all day...then got more boba @ Tapioca Express w/ Cerissa, Abby, & Gail...and hung out some more @ Cerissa's dorm...yep, sometimes repetition can be fun.
so now, instead of practicing my fingerspelling for asl, here i am typing out this blog. tomorrow morning, i start my research by tutoring at torrey pines high school before going to class. and so school starts forreals...tomorrow. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages >=0

last day of summer
tomorrow is the first day of class...am i ready? no. 2 classes tomorrow...sign language (stupid last muir college requirement that i havent finished up yet) at 930...and tep 117 @ 2pm. APSA ice cream social is tomorrow @ 630, and then hopefully/maybe pb bar & grill tomorrow night. and so tomorrow marks the beginning of the end of my time here at ucsd. 1 more year, 3 more quarters, 7 more classes, and im outta here! stay tuned we'll be back after these messages =p

i wonder...
why i haven't been blogging. maybe because nothing has been happening lately to warrant me blogging. just trying to enjoy my last bit of summer break. went to disneyland and california adventure on monday, got stuck on a ride (the water ride @ CA) and they had to drain the ride to rescue us. wing nights @ callahan's with friends are always fun. that's all the really exciting things that happned to me lately. school starts in 1 week. am i ready for it? no thanks! stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =p

hmm...
yes i have been gone for awhile. nothing much has been happening...just trying to enjoy the rest of my summer. went to the beach today w/ Aldrin, Ryan & Lauren. the waves are soooooo much better for boogie boarding @ torrey pines state beach than they are @ la jolla shores! only drawback is that i think the lifeguards are only there during the summer, cuz they weren't there today...so if you arent a somewhat decent swimmer/boarder, i wouldnt recommend it unless there are some lifeguards there. came home, took a nap, and then hung out w/ Nan for the rest of the night. pretty chill my days have been since summer bridge ended. i did get a new cell phone last week...a Motorola T721 for at&t, meaning that im gonna be ending my contract a lil early w/ cingular. better to pay $150 to get out of the contract, then to pay ~$200 for another 5-6 months of crappy service. do i wanna fill u in on everything else that ive done since i last blogged? eh, not really...maybe later....prolly not though. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =)

it's over
so summer bridge ended yesterday. i cant believe its over...the whole month went by really fast. the way i led my suite this summer was really inspired by my atc Jesson and many of the things that he did with me when i was a student during bridge. i hope my students got as much, if not more, from bridge as i did when i went through it. here's to you Alex, Mark, Miguel, Huy, Mohan, & Roberto...i am honored that i got the chance to know you guys over the past month...i look forward to meeting with each of you over the next year. just remember that i am not just your atc...i am also your friend.

now that i'm home, its weird knowing that i dont have anything to do for the next 3-4 weeks til school starts. i have a few things that i have to take care of for one of my classes, but other than that...im down for fun. i wanna go to vegas and have the "vegas" experience...i dont wanna go with family, just with a bunch of friends. so is anybody down for a trip? stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =)

happy 22nd birthday to the bestest friend in the whole wide world, Chie Cathy Saito...hope your day was great...but you're still a big dork =p

i dunno what im typing
cuz yeah it's late/early, and i am not fully here. yep i had some fun tonight, since it is after all my night off from summer bridge. one thing that i realized based on reading my past blogs over the past month or so is that i have been reminiscing a lot about my bridge '99 memories. i guess it's because of my experiences working at bridge this summer, and noticing the scary similarities between the guys of my suite, and the guys of the suite that i was in back in '99. also, a lot of the experiences that i experienced in '99 are happening all over again...nothing too major, just a few things. ok...my brain is not really functioning right now...i'm surprised that im even coherent right now as i type this. but before i go, just wanted to say hi to my friend nina (not the one on clickages)...but the one who's apartment that i am coming to u live from right now as we speak. she's my friend from way back when i was a 1st year @ ucsd. she's on the phone right now, but i thought i would just give her a shout out before i lefted. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =)

night off
yup, tonight is my night off from summer bridge. and yes, i do have the worst nights off from bridge (what is there to do on monday and wednesday nights anyway?) why is it that the newbies to summer bridge gets the cool nights off, and the veterans like me get crappy nights...well actually, im the only veteran to get such crappy nights. so yeah, instead of partying since no one partys on a monday night, i went down south to chula vista to get my hair streaked by my coworker/friend Suzie...well, it didnt really get streaked, more like blobbed, since my hair is so short. i have blobs of light brown and black all over the top of my head...oh well, it's a change from my normal black hair. thanks suzie for the hair job.

so as for the lack of updates, bridge has been keeping me quite busy. i work from 4-midnight everyday, and im usually roaming around argo hall after midnight, before i go to sleep around 3 or 4am. so i just have mornings and early afternoons off to do anything, and i usually just sleep the morning away, waking up just in time for lunch @ noon. so technically, i have 4 hours to do my thing...usually, i just go to the beach or run errands and shower, before i have to go to my 4pm staff meetings. so yes, u can say that my days are pretty full...but i like it, cuz bridge is fun. sometimes i wish i could go back to when i was a bridge student so i can relive some of my memories, change some things that didnt work out my way and maybe create some new ones with some people (person)...i look at the students of this year, and remember how it was for me way back in '99. i had a lot of fun back then, but some things just didnt work out, or fell through the cracks, and looking back at it...if i had the chance, i woulda worked harder to make some of these things work out. but i guess thats all u can do in retrospect, just look back and wish u could change things for the better. that's life. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =l

it's 7:46am...why am i awake???
because i had to wake my students up for their 1st day of class. yep...summer bridge 2003 started on saturday, and it's been a busy weekend. lotsa activities and get to know you stuff went on this weekend. my students are sooooooooooooo cool...i couldnt have asked for better students, and it's only the 3rd day of the program. i hope that it wont change over the next 4 weeks. the dynamic of my suite is something that i did not expect to happen right away...and i am glad that it is happening, since it means less work on my part to make things work, and that is a good thing. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =)

home...but not for long
moved half of my stuff that i need for the month into argo hall today after training...didnt get the room i was expecting to get, but cant do anything about it, so imma just make the most of it. weird that i'm gonna be the atc of the suite that i was in when i went through summer bridge, way back in the summer of 99. didnt feel like staying there tonight, cuz not too many people are staying there tonight...most likely i'll be there tomorrow night though. gonna cut this post short cuz i got training at 8am, meaning that i gotta get up at the buttcrack of dawn so i can make it to training on time. and u know i'm definitely not a happy camper when it comes to getting up at the buttcrack of dawn...thats the time i usually go to bed =p thats what i get for not staying @ argo tonight...oh well. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =S

another quickie
got my car back yesterday...they forgot to connect one of my back lights...grr =/
installed a new stereo...Panasonic cq-df583u...from Circuit City...in my car today it plays mp3 cd's =)
bbq @ Edsel's today...made yummy pork chops...proved why they call me "Cheffrey" haha
retreat @ Julian for summer bridge was great...had lots of fun, and got me some caramel apples
k...time to sleep...training @ 9am tomorrow =/

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a quick blog because...
i gotta go to sleep so i can get up @ 730 to start training for Summer Bridge tomorrow. yup...training starts tomorrow, and the program starts a week from saturday...fun times ahead.

more movies to add to my list of movies
Johnny English
Bad Boys 2

yep my summer is full of movies. went to Irvine yesterday to watch Johnny English with Ellen and hang out with her at Dave and Busters at the Irvine Spectrum...lotsa fun, lotsa randomness...i like =)
then visited Jen Minimo & Rachelle Casinio @ their apts in Irvine, and caught up on each other's lives...more good times
watched Bad Boys 2 today with Liziel, my friend and student from bridge 2 years ago, then went to Dave and Busters in Mission Valley to meet up with Ronnel, Joanne, Annie, Ant, Eugene, & Matt did i mention that i'm becoming a DnB junkie too? didnt think so. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =)

coming to u live from...
LAS VEGAS!!! right now i'm blogging from the kitchen of my mom's house on my laptop. boo to dial-up connection...it's sooooo fricken slow i tell ya. it's so hot here...but weird cuz it was raining and lightning last night. i've been here since thursday night...right after i turned my car in to get fixed, i got my rental Pontiac Grand Am, and headed up the 15 with my auntie lyn and my cousin romeo to vegas. got here round midnight on thurs night/fri morning. the thing that sucks though is that i came down with a cold on thursday, and ive been trying to recover since then. i'm feeling much better now...but im still recovering lil bit. also, i'm missing Mr. Baker's going away bonfire in SD tonight...oh well...sorry mang.

right now my mom, my aunt, and my cousin went to chinatown las vegas while i just stayed here to rest a lil bit. so right now, i'm listening to NAS's "If I ruled the World" video on BET on the tv in the background and blogging away. i caught up to my nephew Rajen and my niece Sydnee last night, and took them out to Circus Circus, even though i was snotty and coughity...but they had fun. Sydnee came home with a few new stuffed animals to add to her collection, thanks to a few of the 50 cent midway games we played. i enjoyed seeing her smile each time we won a stuffed animal for her...i shall post pics of her soon. well...im gonna go back to veggin in front of the TV, so i can feel a bit better. might go out to aladdin tonight...we'll see how i feel. but i definitely wanna feel better by tomorrow, cuz that's when i head back. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =l

movies seen so far this summer
The Italian Job

Finding Nemo

Charlie's Angels: Full Throttle

League of Extraordinary Gentlemen

Terminator 3

yes i've been watching a lot of movies this summer...i still want to see Bad Boys 2, Lara Croft: Tomb Raider 2, and American Wedding. yeah, it's costing a lot of money, but i enjoy watching movies with friends. if u wanna watch with me...just call me up...i'm always down to go. thankfully, summer bridge training starts next week, meaning that i'll be getting paid soon...these movies DO cost money, and it would be nice to have some money in my account. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =)

photos
click here to see pictures from my birthday this past weekend, as well as pictures from Jasmine's 22nd birthday which was today.

happy belated 23rd birthday DorkyJanet whose birthday was on July 15...youre a year older, and dorkier than ever...but i hope u had a good one! =)

happy 22nd birthday to Jasmine who's birthday was today (7/16)...hope u had fun w/ us @ olive garden tonight...check the photos =)

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yes i'm 22
thank you everybody for the birthday wishes..and thanks for those of u who made i t out to my bbiirthday celebraetions @ joe's crab sahck and e st. alleya...just got home, and im n ot really typing strainght..im not really buczzed anymore or drunk...jjust really tired and my hands are out aof orsder right now...honestly, havent dankr since way earleir, i just dont want to correcet my mistakes right nowa. happy birthday to me...stya tuned..we'll be aback after these messagaes =)_

finally!!!
after many weeks of complaining bout not going to the beach...i finally went yesterday. Darrell, Ann, and her friend Dennis came with me, as well as a few of Darrell's friends (i forget their names). i got the opportunity to test out my new boogie board...and might i say it was quite fun...my tan is developing quite nicely...a few more trips to the beach, and i shall have a somewhat normal tan for a black filipino ;)



after the beach, we went to Hooters and then the san diego county del mar fair (it will always be the del mar fair, not the san diego county fair) NFG performed, and they were pretty good...especially when they played the Karate Kid clasic "The Glory of Love."


after the concert, we walked around the fair where i indulged in a deep fried snickers bar...an overpriced, yet tasty experience. they were $3.50, i prolly coulda made my own for under $1...but its all good since it IS fair food. i also got my caramel apples. =)

twas quite a fun day, thanks Darrell (and the other APhiO peeps), Dennis, and Angeli for yesterday's fun. yes folks...summer fun is here again!!! stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =)

Happy 4th of July...and whoever hit me, fuck you!
yeah...so today was the 4th of july...i was looking forward to having fun with all the festivities, and my friends. i walk up to my car, and what do i see?





yeah...i was shocked. at first i thought it was a big bird who decided to use my car as a bathroom, but i dont think bird crap has some red in it (unless the bird had bloody crap). some bastard decided to park in our complex and scrape my car...and didnt have the decency to leave a note of apology. it was prolly someone's drunk ass who decided to park in our complex to watch the mira mesa 4th of july parade, and left in a huge hurry. damn it! this is the 3rd time in the last 18 months that my car has been damaged when i wasnt even in the car...im sick of putting it in the shop for repairs. thankfully the insurance company is being patient with all of these "incidents"...just sucks that each time i have to front $250 for the deductable...i hate it! stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages >=O

perfect beach weather
and yet i havent been to the beach yet this summer. ive been wanting to go, but everyone is busy with summer school, work, or plain ol laziness. hopefully i get to go to the beach before i turn 22...by the way i turn 22 in 9 days, just in case u forgot...but no worries, u still got plenty of time to get me a birthday gift ;) i've become a dave & buster's junkie...i've been there twice within the last week...funny how i'm spending money, and yet i dont have any sort of income coming from a job. ah well...summer bridge training is a lil over 3 weeks away, can't wait. oh well...back to being a bum, hopefully i wont get too broke. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =)

movies seen so far this summer
The Italian Job

Finding Nemo

Charlie's Angels: Full Throttle

more to come as the summer goes by...

so tonight i watched Charlie's Angels with Ellen Mae who i went to high school with, and now we go to ucsd together. we've been friends since i was a sophomore and she was a freshman (maybe longer), but we never really hung out til tonight. i had a lot of fun chillin w/ her...and we had a good time catching up with each other. i even introduced her to the 2 story Target store @ mission, and she got to experience the cart escalator (yep, she was amazed). i'm glad we got the chance to hang out with each other. i hope we do it again sometime soon. catching up with old friends is always nice. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messsages =)

lazy summer
nothing's really been going on...just been chilin w/ random peeps over the last week. saw The Italian Job on saturday, and Finding Nemo on tuesday. chilled with Chris, Steph, and Armando at mando, steph, dave, and mikey's pad in mira mesa last night til 5 this morning. we were just talking about random things...always fun. i've also started working out @ rimac...trying to get in shape for the summer...it's a value too, for $25 for the whole summer...i'm gonna take advantage of that place this summer. other than that, i've just been chillin, restin, and relaxin...nothing too strenuous. my 22nd birthday is coming up in a lil over 2 weeks...hmm what to do? stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =)

1st week of summer
so far my 1st week off has been pretty eventful and uneventful. there have been graduations and parties, and random trips to disneyland and pasadena. twas quite fun...but these past 3 days have been pretty quiet and full of nothing. wanna see pics of what i've done? click here or below the picture on the side. right now i'm bored...kinda miss having people around, since most of em went home...oh well, i'll manage. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =)

on another note...June 15, 2003
Happy 39th birthday to my brother Eric...I know you're not around to celebrate it with the rest of us...but I know you're up there looking down at us as we celebrate your day for you 0=)

class of 2003
congratulations to all the graduates who graduated today, and in the last month from college and high school. hard to believe that i was supposed to be graduating today/this year...but instead i chose to stay for 5 years. it feels a lil bit weird, considering that ~1/2 of the people i entered college with have now graduated, while i'm still hangin around waiting another year to get my degree. in a way it feel good cuz i'm taking my time, and not rushing (too much) to get done...but in another way, it feels bad...well not really bad...just awkward knowing that i am one of the oldest undergraduates @ ucsd and that while many of the people i entered with are continuing on with their lives, i will be spending another year in classrooms at ucsd as an undergraduate. eh...i'll get over it...just 1 more year til i'm out. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =)

I'M DONE!!!
have i mentioned that i'm done...no more school, lots of chill time ahead of me. i finished finals yesterday at 4:45pm with adolescent psychology being my last one. i came home, took a short nap, went out for a couple of hours, then came back home and passed out for over 10 hours. damn it felt good to sleep, after spending all those long hours at CLICS. although i spent all that time studying, im not so sure how i did on all of my finals. i'm actually afraid that all the hard work spent studying may have been all for nothing. i dunno, just a feeling i guess...i hope that's all it is, a feeling...not reality. ah well, my 4th year at UCSD is officially over, and u know what that means....1 more year til im outta here!!! the agenda for this summer? big bum jeff! and then summer bridge one more time...this time as an ATC. i figured that its time for me to take on the position at summer bridge that i've always wanted...well since i went through the program myself. look out 1st years, i'm gonna be transitioning u to ucsd *evil laugh*...ah well, it's not like i haven't been doing that for the past 3 years now. ok...enough bloggin im gonna go out and enjoy my summer. congrats to all u graduates out there, i'm proud of u...i'm next! stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =)

interesting...
i just caught Kristina reading my blog while studying here at clics...and i didnt tell her to read it!!! instead of studying, she chose to read MY blog! wow...people do actually read my blog! i feel especial! my brain hurts!!! ok...i should study more, before i dont want to anymore...too late!!! I DONT WANNA STUDY ANYMORE!!! stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages

fried brain anyone?
for the past 3 nights, i have been pulling all-nighters @ CLICS, a library here @ ucsd. right now, as i speak, im coming to u live from clics after spending another nice night with my books, notebooks, and laptop. the only reason why i leave is because the parking ticket guy starts ticketing at 8am in the area that im parked at, and i dont wanna move my car and walk back here. on this day, i have been here @ CLICS since 6pm yesterday. this set of finals are the worst set of finals that i have ever been through here at ucsd. (note...it took me 7 times to correctly type ucsd in that last sentence...thats how fried my brain is). all this time studying, and im not sure how ready i am for my finals...so many things to know, not too much time to do em in. not to mention the fact that Professor Espiritu is hogging all our time by giving us a paper and a final. i just cant wait til 6:01 pm thurs evening, cuz thats when i'll be done!!! parking guy is coming soon...i think im gonna go home, and catch a few hours of sleep, before repeating the process i've been going through since saturday. FINALS BEGIN TOMORROW!!! *insert sinister music here* stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages >=/

let's try this again
i blogged something yesterday, but it didn't get published. but yeah...i'm gonna die a horribly slow painful death over the next week. finals are next week, and i got a paper due on monday for ethnic studies 183, my social psyc and ethnic studies 183 (yeah i know, i have a final and a paper for this class) finals on wednesday, and my cog sci and adolescent psyc finals on thursday. that translates into 4 finals in a 30 hour time span. yep...i'm gonna die. i just cant wait til 6pm next thursday...then i'll be DONE!!! stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =/

i'm baaaaack
for now...this past week has been really busy. first of all, it was memorial day weekend last weekend. and u would think i went out and went crazy since it was unofficial "first weekend of summer". nope...i was pretty much busy working on 2 projects...1 for cog sci, and the other for ethnic studies, and kinda sorta visiting friends. nothing too wild, and nothing too exciting...just a regular weekend, as if it were deep in the middle of winter. professors who assign projects that are due the day after memorial day weekend are evil. i take that back, my ethnic studies professor is cool (Yen Espiritu...for those of u who know who she is)...my cog sci professor is just plain ol weird. he fricken sounds like barney the dinosaur! if u were to tagalong to my cog sci class, sit down, close your eyes, listen and imagine a purple dinosaur in the middle of the classroom, you'd swear u were listening to barney! in addition to those 2 projects, i also had a paper due today for my social psychology class. but i got that done on tues night/weds morning, so i could go out last night...which i did. i went out w/ Sharon and few of her friends to PB Bar and Grill, but it was pretty dead there, so we went to Margarita Rocks. i'd have to admit, that it was a better experience than i had the last time i went there. so that's been my week up to now. tomorrow is KP's semiformal @ the Bristol Hotel in downtown SD...i'm going with sharon...i think we'll have some fun. saturday is the APSA some long name thing that Victor made up so he could make his event sound cool sports day...and sunday is APSA's graduation banquet @ North Island Navy Base. somewhere in the weekend, i gotta start my finals studying process, since next week is 10th week and the week after that is finals week, then comes graduation (i'll have mine next year), and then SUMMER!!!!!!!!! i can't wait til summer comes...this quarter/year needs to end now. i really need a break from school, and summer is my chance to get away from UCSD, since i'm not taking summer school...and summer bridge doesnt start til late july...so the first half of my summer, i'm gonna be a bum. okey dokey, this blog is getting long...so imma go now and veg a little bit, maybe go to sleep soon. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =)

a return to blogging
i'm back...did u miss me? i dont feel like writing a long entry on what's happened since eric's passing. i just thought i would come back to say that i'm still alive, and so is my blog...so don't stop visiting. perhaps i'll update some more a little later...im just too lazy to write anything very long tonight. maybe this weekend while i'm procrastinating doing the 494882317 things that i gotta do this weekend. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =)

hell week
that term is no joke. this week was definitely hell week. why does life have to be so unfair?
Eric died yesterday @ 558pm...he was 38

here's to you Eric...thank you for being an important part of my life big brother.



RIP
Eric Christopher Davis Green
June 15, 1964-May 7, 2003

i cant do pcc anymore...heading to vegas tomorrow for the funeral. dunno when i'll be back. stay tuned =(

random bits
here's a quickie...
-posting right now in the APSA office, waiting for class to begin in an hour. =)
-running for APSA president for next year against Ian and Cat Yap =l
-was up til 5:30 this morning so i could finish my midterm and 4 weeks of journal entries for ethnic studies 183 >=O
-pcc is this weekend...this is hell week...come out to support =D
UCSD Mandeville Theater
may 9-10, 2003
doors open @ 6, show starts @ 7
free tickets @ pcctickets2003@yahoo.com
-worried about my brother...trying to stay optimistic about his condition =/
-family bickering as a result of the past, and triggered by my brother's stroke is really getting to me =(
-stressin bout school...didnt do too well on my psyc 104 midterm or paper...still got time to improve =(
-mother's day this sunday...wont see my mom =(
-mom's bday next thursday...going to vegas following saturday to visit her and my brother =)
-psyc 180 midterm next thursday =/
-sungod festival next friday =)
-gotta think of an art project for ethnic studies 183 =/
-trying to remain positive about everything...but it's hard =/

sorry for the short sentences...didnt feel like going into detail about every single aspect in my life. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =/

these past few weeks
have been really trying times for me. lotsa things have been going on that has been concerning me and my family. the thing with my brother has really been a major thing in my family (see april 14th...yeah i finally wrote something there). my brother is conscious now, and is aware of what's going on around him, a major improvement since i was there to visit him. my dad is actually there right now visiting him. i wanted to come...but i have too many things that need to be done here. yeah, as i mentioned in the april 14th blog...i feel bad that im worrying about my stuff here, while my brother is fighting to stay alive and facing disability...but i do have him in my thoughts as i do my stuff, and i know that he wants me to take care of my business. like me, he hates pity. dont worry, i will be visiting him in a couple of weeks...as soon as PCC is over, and most of my midterms are done.

in addition to my personal struggles, i have also been actively involved with the students first! stuff that's been happening at UCSD. serious injustices has been happening regarding that...(confused? see the other blog of april 14). all this stuff has really been stressful on not only me...but also the hundreds of supporters of students first, and the candidates themselves. i really hope this issue gets resolved soon, cuz this is really emotionally draining for all involved. =/

ok...onto the fun stuff. i went to the ERC semiformal @ sea world this past friday Jill Perez. it was a lot of fun...my first ucsd college semiformal (not KP or APSA type semiformal). we had a lot of fun together...good times i tell ya. last night, a bunch of us went to E. St Alley in downtown SD to celebrate Mylene's 22nd birthday. fun was had by all. while i'm on the subject...Happy birthday to ya Mylene...yeah it's a day belated...but u get the idea. i hope u had fun. ok...i'm getting tired of typing...so i'm gonna end this now. stay tuned..we'll be back after these messages =)

coming to you live from...
my bed...yup...i finally got a laptop...a lovely Dell inspiron 5100. i came home, and it was waiting for me on my bed. yay...i have a new toy...well actually 2 new toys. i got myself a digicam last week...i'll be posting pics that i took with it over the weekend soon. i'll also give an update on what's been going on soon enough...i promise! too many things going on. but now i should go to sleep...i got class in like 6 hours. maybe i'll update in class, since i dont really pay attention in there that much (yes it is boring and the professor sounds like Barney the dinosaur) and i'll have my new laptop in there to play with, complete with an internal wireless internet card...so u know i'll be abusing the wireless network at ucsd =þ stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =)

laggin
i know i am...i've just been busy with a lot of stuff...add to that my laziness...and there u have it, no blogging for me. dont worry...i will update this thing and fill in the blank under my last blog...lots of news to update, just not right now..maybe this weekend. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =þ

some messed up stuff
DEMOCRACY SUBVERTED AT UCSD

April 11, 2003 - The voice of the student body at the University of California, San Diego was silenced today when an elections committee of seven members voted 4 to 3 to reverse the decision of approximately 3000 student voters in a process rife with procedural inconsistencies, clear conflicts of interest, and egregious disregard for the integrity of the elections.

The Students First! slate, a coalition of 15 candidates representing a diverse variety of student groups at UCSD, was disqualified this evening immediately before the announcement of the election results. Election results showed that the students at UCSD had voted 11 of the 15 Students First! candidates into office. However, the Associated Students elections committee invalidated all votes for Students First! candidates when it decided to disqualify the entire slate.

Prior to the elections, many groups and individuals on campus worked against Students First!, which swept the AS elections in the previous year. One member who lost in a race for a vice presidency to Students First! in the 2002 elections sat on this year's elections committee. Two other members on the elections committee this year had supported the Action slate which lost to Students First! in the same election. The California Review, the Conservative Union, the Freedom Alliance, and the Marksmanship Club, which ran an unsuccessful conservative slate that lost to Students First! in the 2002 elections, created candidates and student organizations intended to confuse and defraud voters.

Throughout the elections process, Students First! was subjected to harassment, spying, and defamation. Fake Students First! flyers, using stolen logos, accused the coalition of hating white students, Greeks, the military, and of being un-American. Student First! candidates were subjected to racial slurs, called communists and fascists, and followed around campus.

Despite these difficult conditions, 11 of 15 Students First! candidates won their offices by vote, only to be disqualified by four members of the AS elections committee. Never in the entire history of UCSD has an elections committee disqualified an entire slate.

There are no hanging chads here, but there is a small group of politically biased individuals who ignored all laws, procedures, and reason to overturn an election. UCSD's 2003 AS elections were not about candidates or issues, but about libel and voter fraud. Is this democracy at work, or has it been subverted? Is this Florida and Palm Beach right here in Southern California?

Do not let the student voice be silenced. Do not let democracy be betrayed.

Educate yourself and take action now. This could happen anywhere; it is time to organize.

this really pissed me off...and it should piss you off too, cuz it could happen to you too. i dont usually use my blog to publicize movements and stuff...but this is something that i'm heavily involved with and feel strongly about. my voice was silenced and invalidated by 4 people, and this is not right. this is not a case of the people who i voted for losing through valid voting...its a matter of these people winning through popular vote, but losing by being disqualified. if u wanna know how u can help, or get more info...email me or instant message me. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages >=O

so what happened?
ok...i am writing this on 4/28, a good 2 weeks after i originally posted this entry. i never filled this day in cuz i didnt really feel like thinking too much about what's been going on...too much on my mind, and it's kinda overwhelming. so what did happen to cause me to not feel like updating this thing in awhile u might ask? well...my brother Eric had a stroke on monday morning april 7. he was driving to pick up his wife from work at 4am, and it just hit. luckily for him, he was able to feel it coming on, and was able to pull off to the side of the road. he was also able to call his mother (yeah...we dont have the same mother) to come to his rescue. Katherine (his wife) called me later on that morning to tell me what had happened. i let my dad know what happened, and things got put into motion. since my dad couldnt get away from work for a day or so, i was able to get my stuff in order at school before we headed off to Las Vegas (where he lives) on wednesday. it was tough seeing him hooked up to all the life support machines, and seeing the staples in his head from where they performed surgery to relieve pressure in his head. i really wanted him to open his eyes while i was there, but it didnt happen. the doctors have given us a good prognosis on his condition, and outlook...but we're still worried, cuz that has to do with his brain. anything trauma to the head could cause complications. well...im just happy that he's still alive...the rest will come in due time. i really felt bad when we had to leave his bedside after 2 days. i felt really selfish for leaving...but i really needed to take care of business back here in san diego. i really wanted to stay longer...but i also had to maintain my commitments at school, and to the rest of the PCC cast. i know in my heart that my brother would want me to take care of my business, cuz thats the type of brother that he is...he's always been supportive of what ive been doing. katherine reassured me that everything is ok...and it's alright for me to leave. but i still couldnt (and still cant help) but to think that i was abandoning him. it's really tough to be the rope in the tug o war of life. on one side, my brother who is clinging onto life....on the other side are school, and other people who are counting on me to be there to pull my weight in PCC, and other aspects of things that i'm involved in.

just by typing this out, ive realized that there are a lot of things i need to vocalize with someone, but every time i try to talk to somebody about it, something holds me back from saying everything that needs to be said. i guess it's because i dont want anybody to pity me...something i learned to hate around the time that my parents got divorced. i think the person who knows the most about me is my best friend Chie, but she doesnt know whats been happening to me lately...mainly cuz we've both been busy with our lives to really talk to each other...i really miss her =/ i dunno...i just need someone to talk to...but i just dont know how to say everything. we'll see how things go. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =/

cough cough
school started this week and i'm coughing up a lung or 2...so i'll update more when i stop coughing. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =/

Las Vegas
so Aldrin won the contest, since he was the only one who correctly guessed where i was for these last few days...hell, he was the only one who even guessed. congrats aldrin, u have just won a lifetime supply of dryer lint! but yeah...i was in vegas for the last 3 days, i would give more details as to what i did while i was there, but i'm too lazy to type it all out. but i will say that the clubs in vegas are soooooooooooooooooo much better than the clubs here in daygo...i highly recommend them. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =)

can anybody...
guess where i'm going...comment on it down there...whoever guesses correctly will get something cool (maybe a stick of gum or some dryer lint...we'll see how i'm feeling)....stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =þ

to put things in perspective
i typed this out earlier, but blogger was being sucky...anyways tonight i chilled w/ Vietca. we ate @ Seau's before going to see Bringing Down the House @ AMC Mission Valley. it had been awhile since she and i had chilled and had a nice conversation. she was one of my students during Summer Bridge '02, but we had chilled a few times since then...but yeah it had been awhile. well...while we were having a pleasant evening of fun, food, and mindless entertainment, i came home to learn that US troops in iraq had been in a major dogfight w/ an iraqi batallion. i think that it's crazy how half of the US military and all of the iraqi military are fighting a war, while the rest of us are trying to enjoy life as best as we can in spite of this war. i really hate this war...i'm not gonna share my views of the reasons behind the war, other than the fact that i have mixed feelings about the reasonings behind it, and that i hate war...but i just want it to end (as peacably (sp?) as possible). right now as i type this, i'm watching nbc as a reporter is in the trenches with the marines as they try to target some iraqi snipers who are also targeting them...it's funny cuz the reporter was just asked by the anchor "do you feel safe where you're at, do you need to move?" and the reporter responded by saying "we can't move if we wanna continue to bring you these great pictures" he later said that he feels safe, but it's funny how this war is like one of those reality series (eg real world, survivor, etc) but only this one is life or death. i support our troops, im just tired of all the death...i think there should just be a huge dodgeball game, and whoever loses the game loses the war...if only it were that simple. ok, no more war stuff...stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =/

finals....is over
yep...i finished my finals yesterday, although i shoulda been done tonight, but i finished my paper that was due today on tuesday night and turned it in yesterday....now it's time to chill and have fun cuz spring break is here! but there's a shadow hanging over the excitement of spring break. the war with iraq started yesterday...i just hope it doesnt last too long, and things go back to normal soon enough. i have mixed feelings about the war (i hate war and there are a lot of things about it that i dont agree with, but i can see some reasons behind it)...enough about the war. i just got home from chillin w/ Krystle, as we wandered about san diego somewhat as a celebration of finishing finals. let's see what this year's spring break has in store for me. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =)

2:00am monday morning and
i got a psyc 101 final in 9 1/2 hours...and i'm blogging? go figure...just procrastination at its best

"procrastination is like masturbation...it feels good til u realize youre fucking yourself"

good thing i've been studying all weekend, so i havent really been procrastinating as much as you might think, but for some reason i dont feel fully ready. maybe it's been all the study breaks that have turned into hiatuses (like this one).

currently listening to DJ Opus-slow jam megamix which is #183 on my winamp playlist...go download it on Kazaa lite...kazaa lite is way better than kazaa (it's the same thing, only no spyware).

ok...enough of this masturbation...gonna study for another hour and a half, then sleep. wish me luck...stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =þ

see what being nocturnal does to you?
haloHalo45 (2:12:42 AM): i jsut wanted to say hi
ann(2:12:44 AM): hahahah
ann (2:12:48 AM): HI!
ann (2:12:52 AM): how are you doing?
haloHalo45 (2:12:55 AM): when are u coming back to sd?
ann (2:13:00 AM): how's the ladies treating you
ann (2:13:02 AM): yeah.. next week
haloHalo45 (2:13:02 AM): im good...just writing my paper
haloHalo45 (2:13:12 AM): the ladies dont like me
ann (2:13:19 AM): they don't
haloHalo45 (2:13:24 AM): nope...
ann (2:13:24 AM): why don't you kick them then
ann (2:13:27 AM): pull their hair
haloHalo45 (2:13:29 AM): i like them...but they dont like me
haloHalo45 (2:13:38 AM): i should shouldnt i?
ann (2:13:46 AM): tap them in the shoulder and run away
ann (2:13:57 AM): give them notes... i like you do you like me. circle yes or no
haloHalo45 (2:13:58 AM): thats all u want me to do?
ann (2:14:01 AM): yeah.
ann (2:14:04 AM): tell me what happens
haloHalo45 (2:14:09 AM): and then they circle "or"
ann (2:14:26 AM): that has been your complimentary dating advise from your dear friend, ann
haloHalo45 (2:14:33 AM): yay
haloHalo45 (2:14:44 AM): u should start your own advice column
haloHalo45 (2:14:47 AM): "dear ann"
haloHalo45 (2:15:18 AM): "i like girls, but every time i talk to a girl, i wet my pants...what can i do to prevent that?"
ann (2:15:20 AM): disclaimer.. if you circle "or"_ you will automatically be my wife... no ifs ands or buts
ann (2:15:29 AM): omg...
ann (2:15:38 AM): having those wet dreams again
ann (2:15:44 AM): ?
ann (2:15:46 AM): lol.
ann (2:15:50 AM):
haloHalo45 (2:15:54 AM): "by wet my pants...i mean i pee myself"
ann (2:16:24 AM): i hope your pee is sweet smelling
haloHalo45 (2:16:30 AM): "and they look at me and laugh loudly so everybody can hear..and laugh along"
haloHalo45 (2:16:42 AM): notice the quotation marks
ann (2:16:53 AM): maybe pheromones are easily transmited through peeing?
haloHalo45 (2:16:55 AM): quotation marks mean that they dont apply to jeff
ann (2:17:18 AM): ok.... jeff's imaginary friend
haloHalo45 (2:17:24 AM): haha
haloHalo45 (2:17:33 AM): let's call him keff
ann (2:17:38 AM): deff
ann (2:17:42 AM): keff
ann (2:17:48 AM): yo yo yo
haloHalo45 (2:17:50 AM): haha
haloHalo45 (2:18:11 AM): now his laundry basket smells like urine
ann (2:18:19 AM): can he do the head thing?
haloHalo45 (2:18:25 AM): the head thing?
ann (2:18:34 AM): yaknow... attitude head thing
haloHalo45 (2:18:43 AM): the attitude head thing?
ann (2:18:45 AM): oh... no.. you diiiidn't
haloHalo45 (2:18:55 AM): haha
ann (2:18:55 AM): don't tell me you don't know
haloHalo45 (2:19:10 AM): im not quite so sure...a picture is worth a thousand words
haloHalo45 (2:19:13 AM): u got a picture?
ann (2:19:21 AM): no. i'm hungry
ann (2:19:25 AM): i ate the camera
haloHalo45 (2:19:28 AM): let's eat
ann (2:19:46 AM): do you like 24 mm or 34mm?
ann (2:19:58 AM): kodak or fuji?
haloHalo45 (2:20:03 AM): got any aps?
haloHalo45 (2:20:15 AM): fuji is tasty
haloHalo45 (2:20:22 AM): kodak is just plain bland
ann (2:20:36 AM): yaknow the tripods... they are too hard to digest..
haloHalo45 (2:20:49 AM): do they give u squirttles?
ann (2:20:50 AM): it takes me a long time for it to :pass through"
ann (2:21:06 AM): no... i take it like a man and sit in the toilet for a long time
haloHalo45 (2:21:11 AM): ah
ann (2:21:12 AM): read a magazine
ann (2:21:17 AM): are you like that?
haloHalo45 (2:21:21 AM): dont fall asleep on the can
ann (2:21:27 AM): do you go to the bathroom for a long time?
ann (2:21:34 AM): take a mag and sit there for hours
haloHalo45 (2:21:35 AM): til i'm sure i'm done
ann (2:21:52 AM): why is that?
haloHalo45 (2:22:01 AM): nothing's worse than going potty, and then realizing that u have to go 5 mins later
haloHalo45 (2:22:09 AM): thats a waste of toilet paper
haloHalo45 (2:22:21 AM): and u do know that toilet paper is just like gold
haloHalo45 (2:22:31 AM): it serves its purpose
ann (2:22:39 AM): do you count how many sheets and then cut?
haloHalo45 (2:22:46 AM): no
haloHalo45 (2:22:56 AM): i just pull til i think i have enough in my hand
ann (2:23:01 AM): i just take a whole handful and wipe.. then fold... and then wipe again
ann (2:23:08 AM): lol.
haloHalo45 (2:23:08 AM): u fold?!?!
haloHalo45 (2:23:11 AM): i crumple
ann (2:23:29 AM): yes... we have conflicting methods
haloHalo45 (2:23:50 AM): im usually in a hurry to get out
haloHalo45 (2:23:58 AM): so i dont spend time folding
ann (2:24:02 AM): hahha.
ann (2:24:05 AM): yeah...?
ann (2:24:12 AM): well then.. you are wierd
ann (2:24:16 AM): weird wierd wierd
haloHalo45 (2:24:18 AM): how am i weird?
haloHalo45 (2:24:28 AM): youre weirder
haloHalo45 (2:24:30 AM): u fold
ann (2:24:36 AM): shudup.
ann (2:24:40 AM): hahaha
haloHalo45 (2:24:46 AM): c'mon...gotta snap to action, wipe your butt as fast as u can
haloHalo45 (2:24:53 AM): not spend time folding
haloHalo45 (2:24:57 AM): and making sure the sheets are even
haloHalo45 (2:25:01 AM): no time for that
haloHalo45 (2:25:04 AM): chop chop
ann (2:25:18 AM): ITS NOT THAT COMPLICATED...
haloHalo45 (2:25:33 AM): it takes time
ann (2:25:35 AM): folding... crumpling.. same thing
haloHalo45 (2:25:44 AM): whereas, u can crumple as u pull it from the roll
ann (2:25:49 AM): yeah yeah.. why don't you write a book about it
haloHalo45 (2:26:01 AM): i should shouldnt i
haloHalo45 (2:26:08 AM): u could illustrate
ann (2:26:12 AM): see if new york times finds it the "best seller" list
ann (2:26:25 AM): yeah... my butt is bigger.
haloHalo45 (2:26:34 AM): hey...if the poop book can do it, so can the toilet paper book
ann (2:27:14 AM): well... you think about it... give me the draft by tomrow.
ann (2:27:19 AM): i'm going to bed now


yeah...i shoulda been writing my paper...but instead ann and i were talking bout toilet paper. and i just coded that long convo too...so yeah...back to my paper, i hope u found that amusing...stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages ;)

back in the day...
the show of all shows was Knight Rider...i love that show, and right now i'm watching it on sci-fi network. yes i am a nerd, and a child of the 80's =þ sucks that its almost over. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =þ

PS...
refer to the February 13, 2003 about what happened today...i swear, it always happens...yup, just venting. just 1 more lecture of this. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages >=O

this weekend
ok, right now as i'm typing this, i'm at the library lounge at school waiting for the APSA meeting to start...but i had wanted to blog on sunday night, but was too lazy to type. but yeah, this weekend was really busy. APSA talent show was this weekend, and for like the first half, thats all that i did. i was in charge of the info booth, so for much of friday and all of saturday i was doing stuff for that. in addition to that, i also had PCC practice on friday night, and skit and dance practice right after that. while i was holding the fort down during talent show, i was also practicing. the skit went off really well. i was hella (yup my bay areaness is kinda sorta coming out...not really) nervous right before i went on stage...since i had a big role as the "evil director" which was my first time ever doing a major role, i was very edgy (is that a word?) but i ended up doing pretty well (although i stuttered a bit). dance routine was fun too, i learned a lot of it during the last week...but i saw the dance video, and i think i did ok (for an apsa dance routine). after the show was over, a bunch of us (like 20 deep) went to Keith's to eat. i was in the mood for some breakfast, so i had a ham ommelette. when i got home, i literally passed out from being so tired.

the next day was apsa alumni/undergrad sports day. i woke up around the time it started, so i was about an hour late...but it's all good. i got there right as they started playing soccer. i chilled there for about an hour, before i headed to the cross cultural center w/ Reggie. we got there right before 1, thinking that that was when practice was supposed to start. when we got there loralei told us that we owed her a dollar since practice started @ 1230. i was like wtf??? i thought it was at 1...but apparently they had sent out emails saying that the time had changed to 1230. i was upset about that...cuz they didnt mention anything at the last practice...and last week they had told us that it was at 1. that put a damper on my practice, cuz i was expecting to be enjoying myself during practice, but all i was doing was thinking about that. practice was supposed to go til 4, but reggie and i cut out at 3 to go back to sports day, where i played a little bit of football. the undergrads ended up winning the day, taking both soccer and basketball, and tying at football. that night, like 25 of us went to rei do gado's, an all u can eat brazilian bbq place. good stuff i tell ya, but a bit pricey. good food, and lotsa competition to see who could eat the most meat. Marissa ended up getting rookie of the year, after she out ate all of the rookies (most of whom were male)...but i think she paid for it later =þ

all in all it was a fun, tiring, interesting, and non-academic weekend. class has been blah...this is the last week, and then finals are up next week. this is also the last week w/ my 7th graders @ the Preuss school. it was fun going there. alrighty...i was gonna study, but i got stuck doing this...so yeah...time for the apsa meeting. i hope u enjoyed reading this unusually long blog. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =þ

3 1/2 hrs of sleep
last night...and i've been awake for 21 hours now with no naps...not staying up much longer though, i'm bout to go to sleep, gonna get experimented on by the psyc department again tomorrow for extra credit...didnt fall asleep in my psyc 106 class today (weird cuz i usually fall asleep in there)...hung out with Corina today...APSA skit practice...APSA dance routine practice...all for talent show which is this saturday...came home and finished tep 138 letters...k..time to sleep...stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =l

did i mention
that i had pcc practice today? yeah, can u believe it...i swore off all the practices after my experiences last year (i felt like a lot of time was wasted, and i didnt really feel like i was a part of pcc for much of last year's practices), but i had a lot of fun during hell week, so now i'm back for more. well yeah...the first pcc practice was today, which is a lil bit later than usual (the show is on mother's day weekend)...meaning we have a lil more than 2 months to get things ready. i'm in sakuting, and i'm thinking about trying out for a small part for cast, just so i have more time on stage. i just did 1 dance last year and was an extra in the party scene...and the rest of the time i was stage crew. i figure that since i'm putting all this time into pcc, that i should be in more than just 1 3-5 minute dance.

apsa talent show is this saturday...if youre reading this, then that means you must go, cuz it's gonna be a good show, and if that doesnt make u wanna go, then the fact that i'm gonna make a fool of myself on stage should convince ya. ok, enough randomness (wow 2 entries in less than a day) time for me to sleep, i'm getting experimented on tomorrow by the UCSD psychology department...maybe they will find out what's wrong with me sometimes. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages ;)

this week...
busy week this past week. i had a midterm for psyc 101 this past tuesday..didnt do as well as i would have liked...but i did better than i did before. ive also been really busy getting things for APSA's Talent Show done...i'm in charge of the info booth where everybody checks in, so i've been getting the stuff i need ready for that. but i've also been designing the name badges for the acts, the committees, and the committee heads. i never realized how anal i get when i am creating something. but i dunno, i love being creative (which is prolly why i did the APSA programs for so long), but when i get creative, i also become a perfectionist, and everything has to be in the right place before i'm happy with it. so, being the perfectionist that i am...it takes forever for me to do these name badges. i've also got the skit for talent show to practice for...which should be fun. it's a great skit thanks to Reggie, Mizuki & Jackie who wrote it.

last night i went to the marshall semi-formal...not with a date, but with Mikey (aka DJ Sureflow), who djed the dance...i helped him load and unload his dj equipment. it was a cool dance, and it was on a boat. i had a lot of fun...and it sure beat staying at home to do homework. well, this week will be crazy, cuz its the last week before talent show. hopefuly tonight, i'm gonna do the work that's due this week and then focus on talent show stuff for the rest of the week. then after that start on finals preparation, since finals is in 2 weeks!!! we'll see how that goes. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =/

this is so true...
my best friend Chie [pronounced Chee-eh] emailed me this...and i totally related to much of what it says. it's long, but it really is good reading...

ON BEING TWENTY - SOMETHING
They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you. You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender! What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

there are certain parts of it that relate to some of the events that have happened lately that kinda got me in a bit of trouble (ahem...my strong opinions)...i would elaborate more, but the people involved wouldnt appreciate it very much, and i would rather put everything about it behind me. but pretty much, that email summarized my life as it is. i suppose everybody goes through it...we'll see how things shape up. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =l

goooooo....
Strongbad!!! this stuff is sooooooooooooooooooooo funny...just click on the different emails....they'll put a =D on your face.

*disclaimer* this is not very helpful if u have any midterms that you should be studying for...like the 2 midterms that i have, and should be studying for.

oh well...stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =D

today is...
a SAD day...for those of u who don't know why it's a SAD day, that's because it's Single Awareness Day. for all u singles out there, let's party...and for all u couples out there, don't be jealous just cuz youre celebrating valentine's day. =þ stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =þ

pet peeves about school
tuesdays and thursdays are my really long days at school...and i just wanna say that there's 1 thing that really irks me in class, especially on these days when the classes are an hour and 20 minutes long, that's those people who must ask a question that really isnt relevant to what we have to know for class. for example...in my psyc 101 class...there's this one girl in there who insists on asking a question in every single lecture...sometimes more than 1 question. now i'm not saying that asking questions just for clarification is bad, or asking these questions in smaller classes that are geared for these types of discussions, but there are 300+ students in this class, and this girl (and a few others) insists on asking questions about the subject that we DO NOT need to know for class. her questions usually begins with "what if..." and the rest of it is a scenerio that she prolly made up in her mind that has nothing to do with what we need to know for the class/midterm/final. and the professor is amazed that she has such "ingenuitive thinking" (and i quote that, cuz the professor did say that) that she answers the question as fully and as drawn out as she can, which may be stimulating to her and the psycho question asker, but boring to the other 300 students in the class. and this girl is the one who asks the questions when the professor asks "are there anymore questions before i let you guys go?" which keeps us longer than is necessary. this is not the first class that i've had with her...ive had at least 1 class w/ her every quarter for the past 2 years. grr...c'mon lady, we dont need to know this stuff that youre asking....thats what office hours are for! i seriously wanna take her outside and knock her upside the head with a wet noodle. grr...it's really annoying!!! if u dont believe me, just ask ronnel, he knows what i'm talking about since he's in my class. anybody have a wet noodle to spare? i will thank you kindly =þ stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages >=O

it's been awhile
school is keeping me in check...so i havent really been posting in awhile..i really need to focus more, cuz i took 2 midterms last week, and i got my grades back this week. let's just say they werent grades that i was expecting to get...and that isnt a good thing. nothing really has been going on in my life. i'm still confused about things, and how things should be running in my life. i need to figure out what's right for me, and if i should move on to better things, in all aspects of my life (especially one part). the people in my life are a big question to me right now. for some reason i feel like everybody is moving on and doing their own thing, while i'm left to fend for myself, which is sometimes a good thing...but i feel like im being left out of other people's plans...i want to still be in their lives, cuz my friends and the people i communicate with are big parts of my life...ack...enough of my random ramblings, i'm prolly confusing you in the same way that i'm confusing myself

well...other than that, things are good. despite my confusion, i am still hanging in there, and trying to have a good time while i'm at it. it's another 4 day weekend for me, i'm gonna go out and make the most of it before midterm season comes back for round 2 in a couple of weeks. anybody have plans for this weekend? call me up if u know the digits...if not, i'll hopefully find something that's mentally stimulating and entertaining.

jumpin music
slick dj's
smoke machines and...
laser rays...
look out weekends cuz...
here i come
because weekends were...
made for fun!

stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =)

i have to wake up at 530am...
what am i still doing up? i'm headed to irvine in like 4 hours for the APAAC conference...why am i awake? i guess its cuz im nocturnal, and i cant sleep early...well, that and i took a long 4 hour nap earlier. well...imma try to get a couple of hours sleep...stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =(that foot mouth thing that u see on aim)

future teacher
this quarter i'm taking TEP 138...a tutoring class in which i go to the Preuss School @ UCSD, and tutor and assist where needed. last week one of the teachers that i'm assigned to wasnt really able to be in class because she was running around doing science fair things, and she had a substitute teacher come in to watch the class. they would not listen to a word that he was saying to them, but when i stepped in and had them sit down to do their work...they actually listened to me! i mean, there were a few who still tried to wander around and stuff, but for the most part they listened. i was really nervous, but i tried to not let that get to me, and it worked. i know that there is more to teaching than just getting them to listen to me, but still, that made me happy to know that they listen to me.

well, this year is the year that i'm gonna have to start looking beyond UCSD, and into my career, since i'm graduating next year. i decided a couple of years ago that i want to go into teaching, so now it's time for me to look into teacher's credentialing programs. so far, i've already ruled out UCSD's teaching program, cuz theyre too damned picky with what they want from its undergrad applicants. i'm really interested in SDSU's teaching program or maybe even UCLA...but we'll see how things go. i'm already excited in what's to come from my teaching career...but i know it's gonna be a lot of hard work. dorkyjanet you better help me out with what i need to do to get in! stay tuned..we'll be back after these messages =)

random 430 am picture
i just finished reading, and instead of sleeping...i bring to you a random picture that i found while i was surfing the net...

engrish can be so funny when u dont know what youre saying...stay tuned, we'll be back after these messages =)