Deep Thoughts
ya know...ever since i posted that one blog last week regarding my "friendliness" i've received a lot of feedback from it. it seems like everyone has read it..and has had something to say about it. the most common thing that people have said is that they could see it...and that they agree in some ways. Phil even gave me the "blog of the week" award. i dunno...i appreciate people for being honest, and even blunt with me, and giving me their 2 cents worth about the topic. but sometimes i just wonder why no one ever brought it up to me before. i guess its cuz its a sensitive topic to talk about...and that they wouldnt feel right bringing it up just like that. i guess it took a bit of realization on my part to get people talking...at least talking to me about it. but i dunno...whenever people describe my friendliness as being "touchy" it really gets me thinking. i mean...do people associate Jeff Green with the word touchy? when people picture my face...do they also picture me being this "touchy monster"? i dunno...when i hear that word...i associate it with some sort of sex offender, and it really makes me feel low. its not like im trying to be a rapist...im just...well i was...trying to express a feeling of welcome to others. but i guess people have perceived that as touchy. i dont want people to think of me that way...i wanna be thought of as a friend who is there for them. i guess the hugs are [were] my way of reassurance that im there for peeps in addition to a sense of welcome. but i dunno...since it was brought to my attention...i have been really conservative with my welcomes. some people have noticed...while others havent caught on. what im really afraid of is that this will affect the way people will vote in the upcoming APSA elections, since im running for fundraising. some people will claim that they will pick based on who's most qualified...but i have a sneaky feeling that this issue will be a factor in the way some people will vote. dont get me wrong...im not afraid of losing, and i strongly believe that Jas is qualified for the position...but things like this affect peoples votes. i want to be seen by people as they would see a friend...not one who is touchy. with that said...i think i'll end there...g'nite =/