this post was originally posted on tuesday morning 4/10/01 @ like 230 am... i took it down cuz i didnt want certain people (namely my mom )reading it...just cuz she saw the link...and i just didnt wanna talk about anything that was in this blog...so i am now reposting it for your reading pleasure.


*DISCLAIMER ALERT* ok...my blogs have been pretty much upbeat and happy...but a whole bunch stuff has been happening thats been seriously buggin me and bringing me down...and since this is my self-expression page...im gonna express myself right now...so if u dont wanna read about a whole buncha shit...then turn away...

why does life have to be so damn fugly??? ok...first my fuckin grades come out crappy, forcing me to have to take summer school (something that i didnt plan on doing) then a whole buncha other shit happens. well...im just gonna explain the events of the past weekend (saturday-monday). ok...i guess saturday started out alright. i got to sleep in, i ran a few errands, and then i went to VSA culture night @ UCSD...which was pretty cool. after that, Chris, Baker, Darrell, and I went to Shea's birthday party @ the Navy Sub-base in Pt. Loma. well, when we got on base...i had no idea where i was going...so i was looking around for signs that say where it might possibly be. well, apparently, i was riding up on a police car's (unmarked ford explorer) tail...so they circled around to get behind me...and pulled me over. this was the first time i had ever been pulled over!!! according to him...i was speeding (i think i was going about 30-35 mph in a 25 zone) but the thing is...i didnt see any fucken signs saying the speed limit...then he had to say "you probably didnt see it cuz you were going too fast." that didnt sit well w/ me...but i didnt say anything cuz thats just something u dont do. well...he let me go w/ just a warning...so we drove the rest of the way to the locale of the party (Harbor Inn) at just a notch below the speed limit. well...the rest of that night was ok...we partied (somewhat), we ate, we went home. well...thats not the end of it.

the next day, i talked to my friend Raquel on the phone, and she told me that she was in an accident on Friday, and so she went home, which is why she didnt go to culture night. after i got off the phone w/ her i went to church. after church, i stopped by home real quick, and then left to go to the APSA grad-banquet meeting. since this meeting was a potluck, and i didnt have anything to bring...i made a quick pit-stop to Vons to pick up some chicken. well...while i was looking for a parking space...I GOT INTO AN ACCIDENT!!! damn it damn it damn it!!! well, lets just say that this lady was backing out of a parking space, and backed into me!!!! and now my rear bumper is hanging and my light is cracked. my damage was worse than hers!!! so yesterday wasnt really a good day...after i reported the accident to my insurance company...i went late to the meeting at David's apartment. and after that we went to Fusion, which was pretty cool. and after that Janessa and I went to eat @ Keiths...where i pretty much vented to her. but then when i got home...i got into a fight with my mom cuz i told her about the accident. she was cool about that...the thing that got us arguing is that she asked if i was taking off work to take care of my car and i said that i was in addition to a little bit of school, and then i told her that i care more about school than work...and she took that to be a smartass comment and thought i was taking out shit on her...but i wasnt...i was just explining something to her. argh...why does she have to be so difficult??? was that the end of it?? noOOoo!!!

today...i talked to my mom...and i found out that she is selling the house and moving to vegas. she had been talking about doing it..but didnt actually do it until today. i was obviously upset cuz 1. my mom is moving 500 miles away and 2. she's selling the house that i have lived in off and on for 17 years. why do bad things like these have to keep happening to me? what did i do to deserve all this crap? shit...i dont need all this...i got other things to worry about damn it!!!