Realizations
yeah yeah...i havent been updating this thing in awhile...ive been really busy and havent really had much time to do much blogging. i dunno...this week has been really busy and stressful for me. i'd rather not go into much detail, let's just say that i havent had much time to do stuff that i wanna do...like sleep and watch tv. but i have done a bit of thinking. i dunno...a lot of things have been bothering me lately. i've been doing a lot of self evaluating just to try to figure things out. just things like my relationships with people, especially with my friends who are girls. i've been noticing things about how my friendly relationships have been going, and i've received some input from some observers. i guess, i have come to the realization that i can sometimes be...how shall i put this...a lil bit too friendly with people. i dunno...i guess its my way...and the way that i was brought up to be...but i guess somehow being too friendly has had some negative effects in the way people perceive me, and in turn...the way i perceive myself. but the thing is, its hard to change the way i am. i dunno...i guess the only way for me to do that is to control my friendliness. but...argh...i dunno...it's late, and i have alcohol in my system right now. i guess my thoughts are easier to understand in my head than in my blogging. well...lemme go ponder some more as i nod off to sleep. nite =/