i'm wondering...
why cant life go in a straight line? it goes along a certain path, and then goes off into its own tangent...many times into an undesired course. these tangents can be either good or bad...but more times than not, it heads into the wrong direction and all it affects is either screwed or placed into a mindnumbing situation. these lines of life also sometimes breaks off into multiple parts, creating more problems and outcomes. i would really like things in my life to be simplified...but for some reason, it keeps getting complicated.

friends can be a great amount of support...but what happens when friends become more than friends and then back to friends...all in the span of a short time? can things be shared between these two people as if they were always just friends? can one talk to the other about new relationships that are happening in their lives as if nothing had occurred between them? or could it just be too much information for the other side to handle? would it be karma if this relationship were placed at a crossroads shortly after it is discussed with the friend who was once more than just a friend?

i have hit that proverbial bump in the road that i discussed in my last blog. where this situation takes me...i can only hope for the best. one person can only do so much to keep that road or line straight without help from others who are on that road, and from others who may be travelling that road with that person. im just tired of opening myself up for disappointment. my hopes get high, only to come crashing down. at this point...my hopes are falling, but havent hit rock bottom just yet. i'm looking for something along that fall to catch me before my hopes completely crash and burn.

dont mind my random babble...i dont know what to make of it...i dont know what to make of life....a complete opposite of my last post a couple of days ago. maybe i should stop setting my hopes so high, and just work with what i got. or maybe, i should just stop hoping and just live life expecting to be disappointed. i havent lost all hope...and i am gonna try my best to work things out the best way i can, and hopefully get positive results.

i know im being very vague, but thats just because this blog is open to the whole world...and only a few people who know me should fully know whats going on with me. if u know me...please feel free to ask what is going on in this crazy life of a confused college student. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =/