good things come to those who wait...i hope
im hoping a break in this "relationship" will be all that she needs to find things out. the feelings are still there on both sides, but her desire to have something isnt right now. i just hope i dont get placed in that "bubble" that haunts guys everywhere. she's off to the philippines on thursday for a month. we wont have much communication while she's away, so 1 of 2 things will happen...1. she'll miss how things were...2. she'll realize she's happier by herself...i hope the former happens...but i cant force things...i just gotta go with the flow. DAMN IT JEFF!!!...why do i have to analyze things so much? why cant i just let things happen as they happen without thinking too much about it. why can't i just do what Baker suggested, and just walk away and see if she will follow? i guess it's just hard for me to do. i need some sort of certainity in all this, i cant just walk away with questions still unanswered (mainly the "what's going to happen" question)...i just need to breathe and chill, and things will be ok...i hope. =/

thanks Cat for the talk over the weekend...not just for talking to me about my problems, but also for talking to me about your problems...it really means a lot to me that you are there to support me, and also that you are letting me be there to support you with your problems. i guess that's what makes me feel good...not only to have friends be there for me, but also having friends allow me to be there for them. also thanks to Cicely for having that talk with me today...friends are great. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =)