what to do?
as i sit here and ponder this dilemma of mine, i wonder why i'm stressing so much over it...i mean i got other things to worry about, and yet at the top of my list is this dilemma...i'm just hoping that the best comes from this, and my pessimism will be wasted worry. i do have to say that my outlook for my dilemma has gotten a bit better since yesterday. i just realized that if i want what i want to happen, i just have to take it on as a challenge, and overcome it...i will succeed (i hope). sorry if i'm not going to far into details, but this is something that i don't care to post on the web in detail for everybody and their mom to gawk at. and i certainly don't want someone IMing me saying that "i know what youre going through" or even having pity on me. no offense to anybody who may be reading this, but this is something that i need to ponder on my own, and if anybody really wants to know what it is, it would have to be through a genuine conversation, and not a passing IM. stay tuned...we'll be back after these messages =/